Recorded live on location at the Jewel Box in New Jersey 01/17/2021
For once in my life
I'm not feeling so static
not as apathetic
You ain't bringing me down
Yeah, you ain't bringing me down
I-E-I-E-I won't deny you
The time and the place, and the chance to save face
You were being an asshole
You were being a dick
IF I'M YOUR FRIEND, THEN ACT LIKE IT
So now every time I'm about to believe an excuse for the way you're treating me, I double check
I check in on myself, like "how's my mental health? When's the last time I smiled? Like, When's the last time I Laughed? Or fucking masturbated?!"
And I'm not trying to impress you, cause I shouldn't have to.
I'm just loving myself, more than anyone else.
Is there relief, I doubt it!
I never get no sleep about it!
Now every time I'm about to believe an excuse for the way you're treating me
I assess...i consider my actions, what's feuling my habits, my patterns, and ask, 'what's my role in all this?'
See, it's easy to tell myself that it takes a lifetime to heal
It's easier telling myself that this pain isn't real
Where were you?! Where were you?! Where were you?!
Where were you? Where WERE you? WHERE WERE YOU?!
For once in my life, I'm not feeling so static, not as apathetic, you ain't bringing me down, yeah, you ain't bringing me down.
from The Jewel Box Sessions,
track released March 20, 2021
Written & performed by: Erin 'Incoherent' Cookman all rights reserved
Audio & video engineering/producer/Mixing & mastering: Oscar Capps IV