Medusa

by Erin Incoherent

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1.
Medusa 02:20
I'll take a, laid back, panic attack some Xanax mixed with, a tonic and Jack two and one makes three, keep your eyes on me 20mg of Sertraline I'll take one for the anger and one for fatigue, one for the restlessness, and one just to sleep, and if after half the bottle, your symptoms increase, don't you worry too much, just call me. I'm a master of trade, spit in my face and if you don't mind feeling numb half the time the Prozac will offset the pain Medusa! Destroy me, my love forevermore the most beautiful thing I will see, Medusa turn me to stone I have to regulate serotonin intake, so I don't lose my mind I've been beat down, I've shopped around, I've packed my bags, I'm leaving town, you don't have to tell me twice I'll take one for the loneliness and one for the grief, one to stop this headache and another to sleep cause if half my mind if normal, than the rest is diseased and that thought don't bother me. I'm a master of trade, spit in my face and if you don't mind feeling numb half the time the Prozac will offset the pain Medusa! Destroy me, my love forevermore the most beautiful thing I will see, Medusa turn me to stone oh Medusa, leave me alone! There ain't no cure there ain't no easy way out stone gaze like ice I only take what I can give, you only give it for a price
2.
Ulcer 04:10
My body is a broken home empty promises keep the place filled with black mold look into the pillars that grow strong with defeat this foundation is old but kept warm with deceit My body is a broken home the echoes sound angry, they belong to the ghosts through the windows come drafts, of secrets long-kept mark these halls as the arms covered up with scar beds and the carpet was torn up to serve as a shortcut for people who'd rather have an easy way out and the faucets are all rusted, don't try them, just trust me the last living occupants died from the drought no grass grows here, cause the land can't be fertile when watered with beer and the tree branches above were cut down when they died from neglect and no love My body is a broken home break the bread, epitaph, now we'll all make a toast cause the high-beams run crooked, like muscles grow weak and they moan with the wind, so you never get sleep My body is a broken home and I'm sorry if I'm not the very best host I've had no chance to clean, since all my friends left they destroyed the front yard, left the whole place a mess and the parking lot's vacant, just empty space wasted or loneliness just dying to find its way out and my heart's just an ulcer, not a furnace, an imposter I spend my time hoping that the pilot goes out leave me alone, cause I'd rather live sad then be struck with your stones send a notice to evict lets demolish the house of this sick little kid
3.
I'm trying to be strong mama like the trees we planted when I was young the same girl, who passed a graveyard, and said a prayer for the skeletons I'm trying to keep my chin up old man you told me to never let em see me cry the same girl who knew how to cope when 'Hello' meant the last goodbye Oooh (x2) I just need to stay off of that street at least until I'm strong enough to not sink to my knees But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees of this rotten town, this rotten old temple I said I'd keep away if only I was able But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees Oooh (x2) (Cinderblock) I'm trying to be strong baby, unlike the bones that refuse to fuse or heal back crooked and awkward say a prayer for the pulverized I'm trying to remain standing in the plot of toppled tombstones, the same bones that held me upright, clinking in the trees up above like wind chimes Oooh (x2) I just need to stay off of that street at least until I'm strong enough to not sink to my knees But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees of this rotten town, this rotten old temple I said I'd keep away if only I was able But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees Oooh (x2) (Cinderblock) I couldn't resurrect incinerated timber but I tell you that it wasn't for a lack of trying tears hiss, as they hit the hot embers, I challenge you to do the same without crying care hands digging through hot, burning ashes desperate to find a molten locket or ring a tree could sway and sigh, as if it knew passion but even blackened branches green up in Spring I just need to stay off of that street at least until I'm strong enough to not sink to my knees But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees of this rotten town, this rotten old temple I said I'd keep away if only I was able But every heartbreak song, like the falling leaves are drifting through the branches of the very same trees Oooh (into outro)
4.
I could lose myself in you (Do you really have to go) But is that what I should do? (Ask myself what am I doing) I already feel the pull (That first kiss, pulled me to you) And the rest was my undoing (It's like gravity for sure) I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself I could plumb the depths of you (depths of you) Dive into the cloudy blue (cloudy blue) Try to swim up for one breath (just one breath) It's as sure as my hearts death (my hearts death) I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself Do you really have to go? (I could lose myself in you) Ask myself what I am doing (But is that what I should do?) That first kiss pulled me to you (I already feel the pull) And the rest was my undoing (It's like gravity for sure) I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself, lose myself, lose myself I could lose myself
5.
Destroy 02:01
I'm too short minded, to remember the bad things, that I've done this time and I'm too long winded, the be the voice of reason that eases up your mind Where are we going? You lost the directions The gas tank is empty Cursed unspoken hexes This road is a dead end and these miles are wasted these acknowledged secrets that we've never tasted Take it all away from here! Etch designs on my bones in tar Ghost of my former approaching me near Shadows cast grow dark and far I took a walk with you, cause you told me the same thing wouldn't happen this time and I'm too hung up on you to listen to the rationale of my mind I'm tired of hiking, This landscape is vacant I wish you'd forgive me Cause I fucking hate this The end of the road, yeah, we've tied both the nooses unless you'll have mercy AND JUST FUCKING SHOOT US I cannot touch what does not grow Hypothermia burns my toes Give me a sign that's conducive to Spring Unless it's too late and I've destroyed everything It's too late, I've destroyed everything It' too late, I destroy everything
6.
Fallen 03:08
Tell me not to worry about it when I'm young, Now that I'm older, tell we what have I done? Dare I deviate from the plan of my father's trembling hand? For am I his ungrateful son? Now take beauty, try and keep it on the shelf Find comfort, trust nobody but yourself Yes, it's safe and it's warm, Eye of a fucking shitstorm Just before the locust come in for the kill Fallen dreams Yes, the seasons, they change, Lies grow old, with mothers age The harvest calls Persephone home Now I'm left with these scars that will not heal The pain it devastates, but tell me, is it real? Sworn to a creed, their tired old motif But this is not my cross to bear Trust in conflict, learn to give yourself a break. Your heart won't put you though much more than it can take You can forgive, you can forget The River Styx has been crossed yet, by men whose broken souls you could not save Fallen dreams Yes, the seasons, they change, Lies grow old, with mothers age The harvest calls Persephone home Fallen dreams Yes, the seasons, they change, Lies grow old, with mothers age The harvest calls Persephone home
7.
Echoes 03:11
No sleep tonight, this bed was made for lovers This couch feels alright, if we cannot touch one another Tonight, tonight A smoke screen was raised, we could not smudge one another with no time to waste, how easy are foes found in lovers Tonight, tonight Echoes in the halls of heartbreak I'm giving you an answer cause I think that this is more than I can take But please just sing to me so I don't have to hear The echoes in the hallways my dear I walked away, so deep now in the ether, Your face hid the pain, or my pride just disguised your demeanor Oh! The lives that we live! Oh! The plans that we made! I could give you a list! I could ruin your day! I could stand here transfixed, in the same spot! I could bleed myself dry! I could live here to rot! To rot! Echoes in the halls of heartbreak I'm giving you an answer cause I think that this is more than I can take But please just sing to me so I don't have to hear The echoes in the hallways my dear These lullabies, they cast just like a spell I wish you'd release me, cause this is hell so defeated by the cause These corridors, they stretch for far too long I should've stopped sooner, knew I was wrong so completed by the loss, the loss, the loss Echoes in the halls of heartbreak I'm giving you an answer cause I KNOW that this is more than I can take But please just sing to me so I NEVER have to hear The echoes in the hallways The echoes in the hallways, The echoes in the hallways my dear
8.
Splinter 02:37
Oh girl, he's just a splinter, his eyes whisper just a glimmer of the story you once told of gold in him The black pot couldn't handle, getting called out by the kettle And lately girl, you're looking rather thin So I'm begging with them please, pretty, pretty please Tell me I can be enough for anybody else So I'm begging with them please, oh pretty, pretty please Cause I was so much happier when I could love myself Roses of red, a gift for the dead Laid down with generosity to calm the ghost in me These demons in me head, ever hungry, never fed A mutiny has taken place, now I can't get no rest So I'm begging with them please, pretty, pretty please I'll cut my loss, I'll have a shot, I'm crawling on my knees So I'm begging with them please, oh pretty, pretty please Because this is my cross to bear, you sow just what you reap Oooh, it's like a needle in my eye and I'm losing my sight, in the confines of my mind And it whispers, Girl, you're just a splinter, not an echo, just a whimper in the battle you once fought, thinking you'd win The two chambers in your heart, beg for mercy in the dark Now you've stained your lips with berry juice to LEAVE YOUR FUCKING MARK So I'm begging with them please, pretty, pretty please I'll cut my loss, I'll have a shot, I'm crawling on my knees So I'm begging with them please, oh pretty, fucking please Because this is my cross to bear, you sow just what you reap Please, tell me I can be enough for anybody else Please, cause I was so much happier when I could love myself
9.
Waiting at a bar, for someone you hope don't show Feeling lonely and exhausted, no plans, nowhere to go Hope my friends don't pass by and see me all alone I bit the bullet, no dice, I'm going home I'm going home, I'm going home Woah! I bit the bullet, no dice, I'm going home I wrote 'I miss you' in your notebook, cause most days I do And I don't wanna see you, but it's all I'm looking forward to I remember drinking whiskey, making love, and making plans I guess I'll never be the stronger man One day I hope to see you in the same place as me, The old bar, Wednesday night, staving off sleep And if we meet eyes, will you raise your drink to me I won't wait up, I won't hold back, I'll let you be I'll let you be, I'll let you be Woah! I won't wait up, I won't hold back, I'll let you be As purple fades to pink, to break a day, to break a vein As rose fades to reality, another time, another way Other days on different planets, rife with scatterings of ashes, I'll never be the stronger man I wrote 'I miss you' in your notebook, cause most days I do And I don't wanna see you, but it's all I'm looking forward to I remember drinking whiskey, making love, and making plans I guess I'll never be the stronger man I guess I'll never be the stronger man oh, I guess I'll never be the stronger man
10.
I watched myself burn out on the wrong side of the tracks, I hitched a ride back, then watched myself fall off the wagon It's no use, I've tried, to hide in plain sight This weight in my heart makes me try a suicide attempt 26 stiches wide Punk rockers, they never survive They either burn out young or they change their mind Not a safe place to be, for you or me And junkies, they never grow old, They either clean up their act or they overdose But I guess, as long as they're happy, I don't mind You try to explain, relapse to replace, The weight of the day, the weight of your brain And I can't help you pick up all the pieces These little lies we tell ourselves, Like we're gonna get sober or get ourselves help It waxes and wanes, these phases of pain And I'm just too tired to keep playing these games Oh squatters will never get hired, Cause as long as there's trains, there's a constant reminder Of a wanderlust so thick, they can't resist And cutters will never do more, than bust open a vein and bleed out on the floor, But if that's how you wanna go, don't let me stop you I watched myself fuck up, it's the only thing I seem to do well enough, And I try to act surprised, but these days it's hard There's no lookin back, that road is a mess, If you want to change, you're gonna have to forget And I can't be your voice of reason Alcoholics, truth be told, They only see their future in a bottle of Skol And I don't wanna know those fools no more, I don't wanna know those fools no more, I don't wanna be that fool no more And you scared me nearly half to death, You don't look the same since you've been smoking meth, But we all have different ways that we lose sleep. We all have different ways that we lose sleep We all have different ways that we lose...
11.
Leave it to me to be alone, in a town I hardly recognize without you by my side. Lord I wish these memories would flee, and take with them, the pain of remembering, but I know, today is not that day. I saw a sunflower tree in the middle of the yard and tore every flower from it 'fore I got back in my car and drove off, Cheers to you, Cheers to us. An old friend killed himself before the start of Spring, I wonder if he left the weight of the world or if the weight of the world just left him hanging. And who, could stand to lose another wink of sleep? If the body bags there, it means somebody cares, and if somebody cares, then I guess you must be thinking of me. Leave it to me to get strung out, and freak everybody out then say, 'I won't do that again' These days there's nobody here, it feels surreal, so many years spent with kids I don't even think I know, do they know me? Such addiction in this sickness, makes it hard just to exist, when I can hear the words they do not say, they HATE ME! HATE ME! HATE ME! LITTLE GIRL! THEY THINK I'M JUST A LITTLE GIRL. An old friend killed himself before the start of Spring, I wonder if he left the weight of the world or if the weight of the world just left him hanging. And who could stand to lose another wink of sleep? If the body bags there, it means somebody cares, and if somebody cares then I guess you must be thinking of me. I guess you must be thinking of me. Disturbia Suburbia, And I hope we all get out, and I hope we all feel free.

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released April 11, 2018

Recorded//mixed by: Chris Beeble
Drums: Chris Beeble
Bass: Tenaya Heredia
Vocals//guitar//uke//xylophone: Erin Cookman
All words by: Erin Cookman (Except tracks 3, 4, 9 which were cowritten with Cinderblock and track 7 which was cowritten with Chris Muerto)
Album artwork: Todd Cookman
Medusa video: BYond

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Punk rock singer-songwriter in South Philadelphia.

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